Friday, October 19, 2012
This Too Shall Pass
This is some serious pain. When you hurt a leg or an arm it really hurts, but there’s a difference to pain inside your body. That’s where all the important stuff is. If you hurt your arm or leg bad enough it can be cut off and you can still go on to live a productive life. Something goes that wrong inside you and there’s nothing you can do. Am I saying there’s something that wrong with me? No. But it’s a lot scarier than limb pain.
I know this too shall pass. I know it gets better. I know my friends in my support groups all say with in a few days they were ready to get right back to doing what they did before. But the other part of my brain can’t wrap it’s head around that. It can’t get past the pain. It can’t see that tomorrow, the next day or even later today I’ll feel better. It’s stuck here and I don’t like it.
I’m posting this because the logical part of my brain knows I’ll look back and read this later and laugh at myself for being so dramatic. But I also don’t want to forget what this feels like so when someone else goes through this I can honestly say I know exactly how they’re feeling.